it has cost me so much and it still takes. I can’t stop it. so I am diagnosed with anxiety. this offers me pills to ‘calm me’ or ‘numb me’ either works cause it’s too much.  it robs me of energy which robs me of fight.maybe I’m missing the point.  all the great minds say to accept what is. well, I don’t. this shouldn’t fucking be what is and I have no idea what to do about it but to survive. I will fight back wih whatever ounce of me I can because I’m done with the cost of fear taking…’s time to take back…even if I have no idea what that looks like or feels like……it has to exist, it has to.