So it’s time for a change…..I think.  An opportunity to move forward or hold steady as is.  I hate decisions especially cause I’m not narcissistic enough to think it only affects me.  It doesn’t, but they heavy is on me to decide.  Only I can make the call.  Only I know if I will be happy with this change, yet, it affects the others in my house.  And what if I have no fucking idea what makes me happy?  I’m getting better at it but I’m not sure I trust myself to know.  And that’s it. I don’t know if this change will make me happy because I’m not sure I can define happy… let’s move forward and find out.