So it’s time for a change…..I think. An opportunity to move forward or hold steady as is. I hate decisions especially cause I’m not narcissistic enough to think it only affects me. It doesn’t, but they heavy is on me to decide. Only I can make the call. Only I know if I will be happy with this change, yet, it affects the others in my house. And what if I have no fucking idea what makes me happy? I’m getting better at it but I’m not sure I trust myself to know. And that’s it. I don’t know if this change will make me happy because I’m not sure I can define happy…..to let’s move forward and find out.