Sometimes you can find the diamond in the shit.  I have been an observer of life in terms of sharing myself.  I learned early to shut down ‘me’.  In my home I learned that ‘me’ could send a particlular member of my family from calm to psychtic in nothing flat.  The problem is, a 2 yr old doesn’t understand anything other than the problem being ‘me’.  So if I shut ‘me’ down and be ‘seen but not heard’ then said family member stays cool.  Cool is good.  ‘Me’ is not good.  Not a lesson easily unlearned, but I’ll be damned to live another day without being ‘me’.  As so it begins……or rather continues on in the long journey back to me.

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